Just letting y'all know I'm going to be rather inactive for a few reasons.
I do have Wifi at home, but my computer is being a butt, and refuses to even load the home screen. If I do get to the home screen, I can't open or use any applications, so I'm stuck with a nice metal desk-topper until I can get it fixed.
And on the more serious side of things, coming out to my mom did not go well. I was originally supposed to start T this Friday, but I am now looking towards a six-month delay.
I will not be able to attend cosmetology school in June.
I will have to work full-time.
I will have to visit an M.D.
I will have to go to family counseling.
And I will have to go on suicide watch.
If we can't reach some form of agreement about what to do, my mom will be taking back the year's rent that she gave me in advance, which means my boyfriend and I would have to move again.
My dad and I are going to try and show her that this really is me, that I'm not crazy, I'm not going to do something stupid and regret it, I'm not thin-skinned, I'm not doing this for attention or to be cool, and that I've not been "influenced" by my friends. My mom is rather fearful and ignorant of Trans issues, so she really thinks that I'm just searching for a "quick fix" for my manic depression. Hopefully, if I tell her how I've felt my whole life, and how I managed to hide it from her so she wouldn't know, she'll actually see that I'm not insane.
If I post anything, it'll be personal artwork to help myself cope. With the above schedule though...I'm not sure when I'll have time to draw or feel creative.
I have just a tiny bit of hope left; most of it was crushed last night. Until I'm feeling up to it, my AMAZING admin friends will be helping with my duties. (Seriously, Nords, EA, Street-Race, Starborn, you guys all ROCK!)
I hope to be back soon, and I will still be floating around looking at all your pretty arts. I just won't be doing as much of my own. ^^